He Spoke to Me

I hit the pillow and I am out. I sleep peacefully in a deep sleep until the rude alarm clock taps my shoulder and tells me to wake up. This girl loves her sleep.

One dark, routine night I was in this slumber. I dreamed. I dreamed I heard a voice. I did not see anything but I heard a voice say, “Do you want to wake up?”

It was a stupid question, and I replied, “Of course I want to wake up!”

“It is going to hurt.”

My response was immediate and without question, “They need me.”

I jolted out of my sleep and woke falling into Adrenal Crisis. I was barely able to wake my husband in my weakness. He called 911 and I was rushed to the emergency room. It hurt.

I am not scared to die. One day I will claim Paul’s words adapted as my own, “Living was Christ, dying now is gain.” But not now. “They need me.” My husband and my seven year old. And Christ has not quite yet carried on to completion his work in me.

109 thoughts on “He Spoke to Me

  1. Wow that must have been frightening for both you and your husband! Thank God that you woke up. God and his Angels are watching over you. I am in awe of how hard you are fighting to stay with your family. I thank God in his infinite wisdowm gave you the choice. I hope that you are feeling better today.

    Liked by 2 people

  2. I stopped by to thank you for visiting my blog, and I ended up getting blessed as a result. Your testimony is like a pillar. As I read this I did think of Paul where he writes (and I paraphrase) I would rather be in Heaven but I am needed here on Earth. Blessings be upon you in Jesus mighty Name!

    Liked by 1 person

  3. Thanks for checking out my lil blog. When I wrote about dying to self and living to Christ…….

    I had no idea…….. I will pray to live to Christ like you are displaying……

    God’s answers are always so far beyond our wants……

    What a blessing to be used for the kingdom’s sake.

    Liked by 1 person

  4. Hi! I saw that you followed my blog and stopped by to thank you and check out yours. Within 2 minutes you moved me to tears! And now I just want to give you a hug and tell you how beautiful and strong you are, and we don’t even know each other. That is the power of your words. πŸ™‚

    Liked by 1 person

  5. I saw that you followed my blog, and I’m not sure why I clicked on the link to see your page, but I did. I’m really glad I did. Your words are so beautifully raw and human in the best sense of the word. I don’t know you. I don’t know who you are or were or who you’re going to be, but whoever you are, your words touched me, and I feel like that experience changed me in some tangible way. Your strength and honesty and your vulnerability. Your willingness to so graciously accept and love God’s will for your life. I just wanted you to know that His work in you is a really powerful thing to be able to reach a stranger in such a deep and profound way. I’m so grateful to you for that. I wish you all the prayers and love imaginable on your difficult and painful and wonderful journey through life. I wish you had an easier cross to bear, but it is truly an amazing thing the work that God is doing in your life. He not only speaks to you, but he also spoke to me through your words today. I can’t even properly explain how beautiful that is.

    Liked by 1 person

  6. For some reason, unbeknownst to me, you have opted to follow a blog that doesn’t celebrate life as you do. I feel somewhat guilty of my content after reading your blog. I cannot bring myself to reply to this post as the words I would use would be less that what I feel. I did mention your post in my latest post: http://lifehurtsblog.com/2014/09/24/sweet-dreams/

    My sincerest hopes and best of wishes go to you and your family.


    Liked by 1 person

  7. Thank you so much for following my blog because you following me led me to your blog. My heart and my prayers are with you and your family. I’m going to add your name to my daily morning prayer list and we are going to pray and believe GOD for your complete healing! (John 11:40 AMP- JESUS said to her, Did I not tell you and promise you that if you would believe and rely on ME, you would see the glory of GOD?) You are beautiful and I love you! (Song of Songs 4:7 NIV- You are altogether beautiful, my darling; there is no flaw in you.) Infinite blessings to you! (Luke 1:45 NIV- Blessed is she who has believed that THE LORD would fulfill HIS promises to her!) (Psalm 46:5 NIV- GOD is within her, she will not fall.) πŸ™‚


  8. Caroline,
    Your follow brought me here and I’ve had a chance to read a few entries. You already know this from other comments no doubt, but I find your writing transparent, honest and with a bit of a raw edge. It is inspiring to hear your heart’s desire to glorify God woven throughout. I had an experience somewhat similar, although I was not ill, but overcome with worry. It is hard to comprehend at times the love and grace that God shows to us! I’m glad we have connected!
    Bless you,


  9. God made you brave Caroline. May you surrender your every passing day to God and let His will be done. God is good and faithful. May you grow more in love with Him. Blessings! His grace is sufficient and His strength is ever abundant in your life. Hug!


  10. My Mom lost her battle with breast cancer almost 8 years ago. It’s hard for us and the pain still remains up to this day. She fought hard and didn’t let her cancer get in the way of what she love doing. I hope and pray that you survive this ordeal and inspire others to keep on fighting. God is great! Never lose faith.


  11. Hi Caroline
    Thank you so much for visiting my blog and for following me. I’m honoured and glad I found your site :). Your story is an encouragement to many as we read of your determination to fight the fight of faith. May God richly bless you. Praying for you too and I look forward reading more of your work. Hugs! Christine


  12. Ain’t life just wonderful. There is no certainty in what we shall get!! Loved it…. your journey makes me very chastened for my own complaining!! Godspeed on your journey Caroline.


    • I tried to write on your site but kept getting “error.” Hmmmm. Well, here is what I wanted to say:
      Friend, we are in this together! I am praying for you. Please keep me updated. God is good. He’s so good. I love him. 😊


Leave a Reply

Please log in using one of these methods to post your comment:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s