I am a writer, a lover, a Friday night dater, a snuggling in front of the fire perfect momenter. I love those sacred moments in life where my heart and soul go “ahhh” and life is complete and has so much meaning. I love those moments when I feel inspired and my fingers tingle and my heart sings and my face can’t hold in the smile. Holidays are the best and opening presents and a home full of yummy groceries. I cherish Saturday mornings when I’ve woken up first and the house is clean and breakfast is cooking and I am sitting reading a book. Starting off on the first day of a family vacation, getting a new puppy, that surprise shopping money in the mail, and date night kisses.
But sometimes it is Monday and it is cold and raining and I am driving home to clean a dirty house. Sometimes I have a doctor appointment. Quite often I have hurt someone’s feelings or said something mean or started a fight. I don’t like to sit in that moment of things not being right. Every now and then I burn dinner, don’t get everything checked off my “to do” list, or get irritated with my husband. Sometimes I am stuck in traffic and I am running late. I’ve gained weight, scratched my new shoes, gone over budget, or forgot to pack Madison’s water bottle for school.
Sometimes I am just clocking time. And when I find myself where I don’t want to be. I remind myself that I am so thankful to have just that: this time that I’ve got. So, I take a deep breath, I apologize, I drive in the rain, I start another load of laundry. I serve. I do something for someone else. I do something to remind myself that it is not all about me and parties and always getting what I want. I make a list and I clean my house. I think about the spring time. I turn on worship music. I read a verse. Because if I just show up to work, I’m getting paid by the hour.
Caroline Hendry is published! Please click on the link below for more information or you can find Beautiful Life with Cancer, Hope During the Hard Times and Spiritual Flesh and Blood on Amazon (Kindle edition available)