Clocking Time

I am a writer, a lover, a Friday night dater, a snuggling in front of the fire perfect momenter.  I love those sacred moments in life where my heart and soul go “ahhh” and life is complete and has so much meaning.  I love those moments when I feel inspired and my fingers tingle and my heart sings and my face can’t hold in the smile.  Holidays are the best and opening presents and a home full of yummy groceries.  I cherish Saturday mornings when I’ve woken up first and the house is clean and breakfast is cooking and I am sitting reading a book.  Starting off on the first day of a family vacation, getting a new puppy, that surprise shopping money in the mail, and date night kisses.

But sometimes it is Monday and it is cold and raining and I am driving home to clean a dirty house.  Sometimes I have a doctor appointment.  Quite often I have hurt someone’s feelings or said something mean or started a fight.  I don’t like to sit in that moment of things not being right.  Every now and then I burn dinner, don’t get everything checked off my “to do” list, or get irritated with my husband.  Sometimes I am stuck in traffic and I am running late.  I’ve gained weight, scratched my new shoes, gone over budget, or forgot to pack Madison’s water bottle for school.

Sometimes I am just clocking time.  And when I find myself where I don’t want to be.  I remind myself that I am so thankful to have just that:  this time that I’ve got.  So, I take a deep breath, I apologize, I drive in the rain, I start another load of laundry.  I serve.  I do something for someone else.  I do something to remind myself that it is not all about me and parties and always getting what I want.  I make a list and I clean my house.  I think about the spring time.  I turn on worship music.  I read a verse.  Because if I just show up to work, I’m getting paid by the hour.

Caroline Hendry is published!  Please click on the link below for more information or you can find Beautiful Life with Cancer, Hope During the Hard Times and Spiritual Flesh and Blood on Amazon (Kindle edition available)

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31 thoughts on “Clocking Time

  1. be positive and stay true
    give your self a goal this will help you
    sit down and take a moment each day
    say a little pray and ask god for his help today
    you can beat this
    you can keep smiling to
    and battle through
    those dark clouds of illness
    will one day pass away
    and you will then shine brightly once again to
    feeling better when sun shines on you
    good luck my friend
    i wish you every hope
    and that you feel better soon
    ive had cancer
    but ive been very lucky to
    i was told to give my self a goal
    at the start of it
    and now ten months
    later i have one too
    be brave be happy keep smiling too
    say these words
    you may be a cancer your trying to destroy me to
    but i am much stronger more positve more powerful than you

    go away cancer go away today
    your night going to be me
    i am going to fight you each day
    when this is over i will be smiling to
    cancer defeated and i am winner too

    you wont be me never not anyday
    I am ready to do battle with you
    my prayers to god will help me each day.

    from kevin in portsmouth uk

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  2. I love this post. I’m currently enjoying summer vacation at the beach and have started to think about the mundane on my return. I guess it’s those more mundane, irritating things that make the good moments all the sweeter. x

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  3. Money in the mail, hun???Nice. That’d be a nice surprise for MY day! I usually get bills. 🙂

    Your posting is an excellent reminder that we just need to keep putting one foot in front of the other and “show up” on days that maybe we’d prefer staying under our comfy covers…I soo can relate, Sweetie. I recently had to “air out a few brain cobwebs” myself. Maybe it’s that time of year. As always, holding you close to my heart and in my prayers.

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  4. Beautiful post! It’s always better to think of time as a friend, not an enemy. Redeeming your time well and basking in those glorious moments with gratitude makes all the difference 🙂

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  5. There are so many times I think to myself, time why do you hate me! It seems like I am constantly trying to get things done so I can finally sit down and enjoy a movie or a cup of hot chocolate. Why do fun things seem so much better when the house is clean and the check book is balanced? They just do! I can’t even tell you how much I relate to this post. Sometimes I just remind myself that those dishes will still be there and time with loved ones is more important. As always, thank you for sharing! :))

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    • we all agree and yet it is so hard to change! just knowing that everyone struggles is so much encouragement, like you say, to put the dishes down and spend time with my family. The dishes won’t age but my daughter will! The dishes will wait but she won’t! and which is more important? thank you for convicting and challenging me!!!

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