“My sweet little bitty, teeny tiny baby,” You have never been one to really like the many nicknames that I have thrown out your way, “Mom! Don’t call me that!” And then I pulled out this exaggerated pet name and you didn’t mind. It is the first that you smile and let it be.
As I like to do, I was having coffee with a friend, who happens to be a mom of one of your friends. She asked, “how do I keep improving my life to show my daughter that she can be anything?” She, and I, realize our immense responsibility to be the role model of our daughters. We chatted and I loved our chat so that the words have stuck with me, bringing a new realization a few days later:
Madison, you are so enthusiastically curious, so calmly friendly, ever achieving new abilities, lover of learning without the stress of perfection, independent, and SO PERFECTLY YOURSELF, that I believe others expect more out of me! This is what I mean:
Madison plays piano. Oh! I never played any instrument.
Madison excels at an exemplary private school with whatever you can throw her way as a model student. I struggled through public school.
Madison plays volleyball. I never did.
M rides horses. I never.
Madison stands up for others (at such a young age)! I didn’t know how to.
Madison loves sharks! Me: scary!
On and on the list goes so that I have realized: Caroline, your job is to get out of the way! God is her parent, He is her Father. I have prayed for this child since I was pregnant and when she was three months old, God said in the most audible way, “She is not yours! This baby is MINE!” So hard for me to open my hands!
But there are NO WORDS that I can write to fully illustrate the overwhelming JOY and PRIVILEGE to see God Himself take my nine year old daughter by the hand and whisper softly,
“Little bitty, teeny tiny baby, I have one big huge, God sized plan for your life!