Kicking and screaming, I had my own idea of what I wanted to do. I had my own plans to seek out to accomplish. God’s will was getting in my way.
I was blind, sick, hungry, and poor. He did everything, it was not of me. I can not turn on a light when I do not even know that I am in darkness. My mind was awakened to my depravity. He is everything, everything to me.
I gave him my plans for his. This is not a relationship to fit into pop-culture. This is not a religion to make myself look good. I give him that, my acceptance and my image.
“A civil war. A rebellion, and that we are living in a part of the universe occupied by the rebel. Enemy occupied territory, that is what this world is. Christianity is the story of how the rightful king has landed…and is calling us all to take part in a great campaign of sabotage.” CS Lewis, Mere Christianity
Do I want to move in and make myself at home? Do I want to be a rogue soldier that has defected from my country? Heaven is my home and I am getting ready. My God has more than supplied my needs. I show up and he does the work. I am present and he is the power. This is a rescue mission. There is family to save.
Do not seek comfort in this world that can not give it. Do not be surprised when the enemy attacks. He lies in secret and waits for me. Do not try to fit in. Do not fear this evil that has already been defeated. The outcome is victory. I am a soldier in a battle. I am here on a mission. This world is not my home. It is enemy territory.