I hit the pillow and I am out. I sleep peacefully in a deep sleep until the rude alarm clock taps my shoulder and tells me to wake up. This girl loves her sleep.
One dark, routine night I was in this slumber. I dreamed. I dreamed I heard a voice. I did not see anything but I heard a voice say, “Do you want to wake up?”
It was a stupid question, and I replied, “Of course I want to wake up!”
“It is going to hurt.”
My response was immediate and without question, “They need me.”
I jolted out of my sleep and woke falling into Adrenal Crisis. I was barely able to wake my husband in my weakness. He called 911 and I was rushed to the emergency room. It hurt.
I am not scared to die. One day I will claim Paul’s words adapted as my own, “Living was Christ, dying now is gain.” But not now. “They need me.” My husband and my seven year old. And Christ has not quite yet carried on to completion his work in me.
Wow
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Touching post. I sincerely wish you and your family the best.
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Thank you!
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Very moving post. You were meant to wake up. Hugs.
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πhugs!
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Wow that must have been frightening for both you and your husband! Thank God that you woke up. God and his Angels are watching over you. I am in awe of how hard you are fighting to stay with your family. I thank God in his infinite wisdowm gave you the choice. I hope that you are feeling better today.
Honey
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Thank you friend!
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Amazing testimony. Thank God he saw fit for you to continue here on earth:-)
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Thank yπu
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I really appreciate how raw and moving your posts are. It can’t be easy to share parts of yourself like this but by putting yourself out there you’ve inspired so many people (including me).
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True.Caroline is amazing and blessed
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Thank yβΊοΈu!!!
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you are welcome
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Thank you!!!
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You welcome π
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I love the courage…you will know when it’s time to let go. I feel like you are surrounded by arms of God. He is holding you up right now. Allow yourself to “just be held”. Xo
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Thank you! That comment feels like a big hug!
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I am deeply touched.
I will be thinking of you and your family in my prayers.
xox
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Thank u! Thank u!
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I am deeply moved by your courage, strength and tenacity. Never stop fighting! *HUGS*
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Hugs! π
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awesome stuff
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Thanks! π
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May God continue to bless you and your family.You are not alone.
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Praise the Lord.
Mattew 11: 28-30
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Wow…amazing. His voice is undeniably life-giving
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Sis. Nothing is impossible with Him, keep believing; ‘coz that’s your currency (faith)
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Very well put! He is exalted!!!
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Touching and inspiring.
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I stopped by to thank you for visiting my blog, and I ended up getting blessed as a result. Your testimony is like a pillar. As I read this I did think of Paul where he writes (and I paraphrase) I would rather be in Heaven but I am needed here on Earth. Blessings be upon you in Jesus mighty Name!
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Amen! “To live is Christ but to die is gain” thank you!!! ππ
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Just be strong and stay healthy for your family especially your little one. God never fails x
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Thanks for checking out my lil blog. When I wrote about dying to self and living to Christ…….
I had no idea…….. I will pray to live to Christ like you are displaying……
God’s answers are always so far beyond our wants……
What a blessing to be used for the kingdom’s sake.
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Thank you!!!
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Woow this is deep, “they need me”, very powerful. Love xx
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Thank you so much! Hugs!
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Hi! I saw that you followed my blog and stopped by to thank you and check out yours. Within 2 minutes you moved me to tears! And now I just want to give you a hug and tell you how beautiful and strong you are, and we don’t even know each other. That is the power of your words. π
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thank you so much friend!
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Very nice post, can’t wait to check out the rest of your blog.
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Thank you!!!
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Being needed gives a reason to keep going, and there’s nothing quite as strong as the pull of our family needing us. (((hugs)))
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Absolutely! Hugs!
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This gave me chills! I’m grateful you awoke when you did, Caroline. I think “they” of “they need you” includes a larger circle than you may realize. π
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A very humbling comment! Thank you!
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You are such an inspiration. I am so happy to have found your blog. You are right. They need you and God needs you to inspire so many others . Thank you so much.
Lynda β€
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Thank you lynda!!! π
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Angelic blessings!
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Thank you very much for sharing your post “He Spoke to Me”. I am deeply moved by his testimony.
Should we depend on God for healing? I invite you to read the Bible 2 Kings 20: 1-7 and 2 Chronicles 16:12-13
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I will. Thanks π
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I saw that you followed my blog, and I’m not sure why I clicked on the link to see your page, but I did. I’m really glad I did. Your words are so beautifully raw and human in the best sense of the word. I don’t know you. I don’t know who you are or were or who you’re going to be, but whoever you are, your words touched me, and I feel like that experience changed me in some tangible way. Your strength and honesty and your vulnerability. Your willingness to so graciously accept and love God’s will for your life. I just wanted you to know that His work in you is a really powerful thing to be able to reach a stranger in such a deep and profound way. I’m so grateful to you for that. I wish you all the prayers and love imaginable on your difficult and painful and wonderful journey through life. I wish you had an easier cross to bear, but it is truly an amazing thing the work that God is doing in your life. He not only speaks to you, but he also spoke to me through your words today. I can’t even properly explain how beautiful that is.
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If you see good, it is God. Thank you for the encouragement! What an honor to be used by him!!!
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As so many others have said…wow. That was a moving post. Glad you wanted to wake up!
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Your blog reminded me of Robert Frost’s poem, ‘Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening’
“The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.”
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Love it!!! Thx for sharing!
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For some reason, unbeknownst to me, you have opted to follow a blog that doesn’t celebrate life as you do. I feel somewhat guilty of my content after reading your blog. I cannot bring myself to reply to this post as the words I would use would be less that what I feel. I did mention your post in my latest post: http://lifehurtsblog.com/2014/09/24/sweet-dreams/
My sincerest hopes and best of wishes go to you and your family.
YDx
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I visited the post. Humbling that you mention me. Life is beautiful! Your life is beautiful! Life is hard! But God is in charge and he is a great God! β¦.I commented on your site also.
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Caroline, thank you for following my Blog, because that brought me to yours! You write beautifully and I admire your resolve, courage and love – for your family and life! I wish you strength!
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Thank you!!! π»π
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I love your writing! I look forward to reading more posts from you.
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Thank you!!!
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Beautiful- I saw that you followed my post so I thought I’d check you out. So glad I did! Such courage! Keep on wanting to wake up!!!! Xxx
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Thank you! βΊοΈ
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Thank you so much for following my blog because you following me led me to your blog. My heart and my prayers are with you and your family. I’m going to add your name to my daily morning prayer list and we are going to pray and believe GOD for your complete healing! (John 11:40 AMP- JESUS said to her, Did I not tell you and promise you that if you would believe and rely on ME, you would see the glory of GOD?) You are beautiful and I love you! (Song of Songs 4:7 NIV- You are altogether beautiful, my darling; there is no flaw in you.) Infinite blessings to you! (Luke 1:45 NIV- Blessed is she who has believed that THE LORD would fulfill HIS promises to her!) (Psalm 46:5 NIV- GOD is within her, she will not fall.) π
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So so much encouragement in the word of God! I am so grateful for your prayers! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
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You are so very welcome! So glad that we got a chance to connect because you are such an inspiration! π
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Great to meet you friend!
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And you as well! I am honored! π
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Caroline, my wish for you is that you can wake up, each day, feeling awesome and loved.
:)Suzanne
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Thank you Suzanne!
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Caroline,
Your follow brought me here and I’ve had a chance to read a few entries. You already know this from other comments no doubt, but I find your writing transparent, honest and with a bit of a raw edge. It is inspiring to hear your heart’s desire to glorify God woven throughout. I had an experience somewhat similar, although I was not ill, but overcome with worry. It is hard to comprehend at times the love and grace that God shows to us! I’m glad we have connected!
Bless you,
Patti
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Thank you so so much patti!!!
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God made you brave Caroline. May you surrender your every passing day to God and let His will be done. God is good and faithful. May you grow more in love with Him. Blessings! His grace is sufficient and His strength is ever abundant in your life. Hug!
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That felt like a prayer from a friend! Thank you!
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Will always keep you in prayers.. From my heart to your heart , Bless you!
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This made me lose my breath a second. Oh, how He loves you β€οΈ
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My Mom lost her battle with breast cancer almost 8 years ago. It’s hard for us and the pain still remains up to this day. She fought hard and didn’t let her cancer get in the way of what she love doing. I hope and pray that you survive this ordeal and inspire others to keep on fighting. God is great! Never lose faith.
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I am so so sorry!!! I know it is just as hard, if not harder, on the family as it is for the patient.
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Yes it is. But she put up a good fight. She didn’t lost any hair or got bed-ridden. She even went to school everyday because she was a teacher by profession. I am amazed by how you turn an adversity into optimism and somehow you remind me of her. You just gained a new fan/supporter. I hope you’ll get through this. Never lose hope and most importantly, never lose faith.
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Your mom and I have many things in common. I was a teacher also. Loved it. God is good!
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God bless you and your family!
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Hi Caroline
Thank you so much for visiting my blog and for following me. I’m honoured and glad I found your site :). Your story is an encouragement to many as we read of your determination to fight the fight of faith. May God richly bless you. Praying for you too and I look forward reading more of your work. Hugs! Christine
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Thank you Christine! Hugs!
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I love your writing. Such an honest, descriptive style.
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Thank yβΊοΈu!!!
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Incredible! You are such a beautiful writer. I’m so sorry your going through this. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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Thank you thank you so so much for your prayers!
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Ain’t life just wonderful. There is no certainty in what we shall get!! Loved itβ¦. your journey makes me very chastened for my own complaining!! Godspeed on your journey Caroline.
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If I have learned something in life, it is that I have no clue what is going to happen next! Hang on!
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Caroline, you have a really lovely blog. You are in my prayers. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.
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I love your blog from the first day I found it. You’re really an inspiration to me … β€
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Thank you!!!!!! ππππ
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I tried to write on your site but kept getting “error.” Hmmmm. Well, here is what I wanted to say:
Friend, we are in this together! I am praying for you. Please keep me updated. God is good. He’s so good. I love him. π
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This actually made my heart hurt. I’m glad your here. I’m beyond sure that you were right. They do need you.
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Thank you! Have a great weekend!
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May God Bless You and keep you strong for your family.
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Thank you!
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your blog is amazing!!!!!!!!!! you are such an incredible person with a talent for writing
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Wow! Thank you so much!!! Happy October! πβΊοΈπ»
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